The Little Black Book of Ideas: September 2010

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Poetry: "War of Hearts"

Circa 2008

January 21, 8:38PM

War of Hearts

I sit in an alley where the sun never shines
A place where a broken heart forever whines
Where to speak of the forgotten is forbidden
Where all the broken carry a heavy burden

A war of hearts I'd dare to fight
Just so you'll be here tonight
Many will bleed in the river of red
A few will die on a white big bed

The sky will weep and the river flow
All the love, no one knows where it'll go
But one thing is certain and I am sure
That this love I have for you is always pure

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

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Monday, September 27, 2010

Poetry: "Intense Love Story"

Circa 2008

18 January 07:57PM

Intense Love Story

Never in a million years
I thought that I would shed these tears
Enough to make a river flow
Like the ones that did years ago

Now I quiver with this throbbing pain
Under the cold winter rain
To feel you with me, my sweet
Will be enough to give me heat

As I watch you drift far away
It feels like I would die today
This is the moment where I wake up
And the intense love story will soon stop

Poetry: "Forever"

Circa 2008

16 January 08:48PM

Forever

It almost took forever to catch your attention
Everyday is filled with so much tension
This is the story of a failed lover
I thought you would be mine forever

All I see is a lit candle
Burning the love that's too much to handle
Feel it burn our pre-destined fate
For you to save it may be too late

I will never give up,
Never will I stop
To have you by my side
Is like having the angels by my side

Feel each moment that passes by,
Feel the time slip fast and fly
I can say, this I will never forget
This I will never regret.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Poetry: "An Ocean Of Love"

Circa 2008

15 January 09:33PM

An Ocean Of Love

I gave you my heart for you to have
In it is more than an ocean of love
Now it's on the floor, under the heat
But my broken heart continues to beat

I live the bitter side of life
At the back of my head I feel a knife
As you soak yourself in sweet ambrosia
Your sweet heart suffers terrible amnesia

I close my eyes to feel the breeze
While you tear my heart with ease
Today I'll battle with my eyes blind
While you are drifting on my mind

The fire we have will never fade
Like the love that I have made

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Poetry: "He Died"

Circa 2008

14 January 10:47PM

He Died

There were days when the sun didn't shine on my sky
There were moments when people hear me cry
Others pick me up and stand by my side
But there are some who say, "he died."

I cry in the night to smile in the morning
In my tears I can say I'm drowning
Will you ever come and stay with me
Will you soar with me to the clouds and see

Is this true love or just a myth
When I can do is nothing but breathe
When the stars fall and the clouds gather
All it means is that you should remember

Confession

As you are reading this entry and the rest of my blog, please play the song featured below for there is a story behind this.

Maroon 5 - Nothing Lasts Forever

DISCLAIMER:

(When I talk about sensitive subject I always use "you" to describe certain people who are part of it)

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Exactly 3 years ago, I was in senior year in high school and it is also the time when I fell for someone a year younger than me. It was mid-September and the rainy season is very prominent. I see you all the time, you were everywhere. In my eyes, you were perfect. It's like someone took you out from a Greek myth; you have the looks, the charm and the physique. I was not attracted to you at first, but creepy as it may sound, I just like looking at you.

But as the days went by, my feelings got stronger and stronger. I finally admitted to myself that I did fell for you. I asked a few of my friends who know you well and said that they would help me get to know you too. I was in heaven at that moment. We got introduced to each other. It was like the usual meeting of two random people. You were nice, a sweetheart.

More weeks came and we never really talked in person. We had online conversations, maybe once or twice. We texted each other for a few days. After that, we just lost contact. The only thing that made me happy at that time was seeing you around. It gives me the feeling of heaven and butterflies, like the warmth of the sun after a cold night. Your mere presence made me happy, you showered me with endorphins.

With all that happiness came it's sad counterpart. I was sad that the two of us can never be in an intimate relationship. It was our similarities and differences that drifted us apart. It was your social status and my persona that pushed us even further. To console myself, I wrote poetry. I put all my emotions into words that rhyme and gave them the life of pain and loneliness. Many people asked where or how did I write all of these. It comes from the heart, with all the blood and through all the crevices. It's natural for me to be inspired and creative when I'm in a state of such intense emotions. Months passed and we never really connected to each other.

February came in and the cool winds are starting to fade. But only one cold thing remained. The coldness of being alone. As I am obsessed with social networking sites, you were one of my friends and one of my featured ones on my page. That night is still clear to me. I checked my profile and admired your name appearing there. I had my dinner went back to the computer right away. As I was editing my profile, I noticed you disappeared. I checked twice and thrice to see it was just an effect of a glitch. It wasn't. You have done the worst thing. You have officially deleted me from your page. I just can't hold it in anymore and I went to bed. I cried myself to sleep that night. As every tear found it's path across my cheek I felt a presence, a weight that just sat on my bed. It was my mom. Apparently, she heard me crying and asked me why. I told her it was nothing. I try as much as possible to keep my family life separate from my other life. She just handed me tissue to wipe my tears and she went back to bed.

It hurt me a lot, and maybe I can say that it damaged me as well. It was the most excruciating pain I have felt for years. I still carry that pain with me until today. I went to school and finished the remaining weeks left. At my last day as a senior, I gave you the compilation of all my poetry, all the words inspired by me and you. You returned it with a few words. "Thank You Anyways." It pierced my heart more. It was emotional torture. I was so hurt, but happy because at least you were able to read it.

The cover of the compilation of poems.
"No, I have no regrets... you have stolen my heart."

I graduated and went to college. I still loved you. I still see you when I close my eyes. I still long to hear your name. I thought I have moved on but what happened was my feelings for you went on a hiatus. It's not that they were lost, they just took a break. I realized that I still love you but there is nothing I can do.

And now that I'm thousands of miles away from you, I can still say that I still have those feelings for you. You may have given me a huge load of pain and humiliation but my heart still goes out to you. It sounds stupid but it's true.

The relation of the song to this story?

It's been the song that I always listen to during that period of my life, and even until now. It still means a lot to me.

I hope you understand that it isn't easy to be someone like me, especially when it comes to emotional stability.

My heart is still broken and in pieces. Try as I might to put them back together, it's hard to do so.

This has been a case of unrequited love, and it will forever be one.

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I hope that those of you who read this got to understand another side of who I am.

If you are interested in seeing the poetry I was talking about in this post, I will post the links below:

I Kiss The Morning Goodbye
Untitled
War of Hearts
Intense Love Story
Forever
Ocean of Love
He Died

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Christmas/Birthday Gift Registry

Well, Christmas is just around the corner (and so is my birthday) so I just want to give you an idea of the things that I would want to receive. Anything you get me is highly appreciated but just in case you were wondering what to get for me, this list will be your saviour from all the troubles of thinking for hours. and I posted this a few months prior the holiday season to give you time to save up in case you want to get me the BIG items.

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