Born This Way

So Lady Gaga released her new song a few days ago and there was so much hype about it. Of course there will be other people who would criticize the song for being "a Madonna rip-off" or "a mash-up of this and that" or maybe "sounds like this". Here is what we should keep in mind:

We only have 7 notes (or maybe 8 if you count the higher C), and how many octaves. We can only have as many possible combinations that are pleasing to the senses and can be used to create a song. Music has been around for centuries, and with the "limit" in composing a song, it is not impossible for one song to sound like another song.

Born This Way is indeed a super gay song, and many people love it. Lady Gaga said that she wrote it in a span of 10 minutes and I applaud her for the creativity and confidence. I believe Vogue Magazine is right. BTW will become the anthem of Pride Parades for the next 100 years. It just sings out love and support to every race or gender. It is something you can dance to or something to make you feel better.

For those people who say that it shows that it's been produced in 10 minutes or that it sounds like a mixture of this and that, then if you know that much, how come it wasn't you who thought of writing that song in the first place? You're making it sound like writing music is as easy as brushing your hair.

And if a certain song makes you want to jump, dance, shake that "thing", laugh, cry, scream, or provokes any kind of emotion, then it is effective. It's the purpose of music, it is the true soul of music. After all, that's where music originated; from emotion.

Now Playing This Week

    Lady Gaga - Born This Way

I Feel Like I've Been Cheated On.

The title says it all. Before I go on writing this entry, let me give you a glimpse of my background. I've always wanted to be a fashion designer, with high dreams of going to fashion school and graduating and eventually starting my own label. I am currently out of nursing school because of migration, yes NURSING SCHOOL. I know this is far from what I dreamed of but this is the story of what happened and why I'm feeling this way.

When I was in Junior year High School, I've decided that I would go to fashion school and take up Fashion Design (what else!). On my Senior year, my mom went to the US to accompany my brother so I was left home with my sister and my dad. My father, being a supportive man didn't really force me what to pursue, he just let me choose what I want and take entrance tests to universities that I want to attend. I took tests for Industrial Design, Clothing Technology, European Languages, and Hotel and Restaurant Management or HRM (basically all the courses that interest me). I passed Industrial Design and HRM and barely made it to the other two courses. I planned on taking the entrance test to DLSU-CSB for the Fashion Design course but it was too far and I don't know how to get there.

I did my thing and this is when things started to change. I have been "influenced" to take up nursing by some relatives. I know that they have good intentions. Others said that I can take this course as a "fall-back" just in case my dreams would fail. I have no negative feelings towards the Nursing schools, Nurses or anything related to the matter. It's a noble profession but it's just it's not really for me. Others said that this is the only path to go, no side streets. I was "convinced" or was I?

I'm supposed to be in my Junior year in college right now if I didn't have to move to a different country. I am now torn between staying and continuing my education here or going back to the Philippines and go to school there. I chose the latter, and now part of me regrets that decision, all of my decisions. I only want to go back to see my sister and my friends but the idea of being far away and school scares me. I regret having to take up nursing and putting my dreams on hold for a vision that is not truly mine. If not for financial reasons, I would've chosen to stay here and go to school here.

Now, there are more conditions. Apparently, I will buy us a house when I get a job. I will be the provider. I have no issues with helping my family but what about my dreams? What about the things I want to pursue? I want to go back to fashion school and take up the course that will fulfill my needs and passions as an artist. I want to start working on my dream as early as possible. It may sound selfish but it feels like the only thing I can do is give up on it and throw my dream away. I feel defeated. I feel fooled.

It's funny how other people appreciate my skill and see my potential but some of my family members just take it for granted. If only I had the chance to pursue what I wanted, I would've graduated and started trekking on the path I chose with my heart.

This entry might spark a lot of conversations and reactions. This is how I feel and this is how I think. If this doesn't please you, I cannot apologize for my feelings.

I just hope, wish and pray that I will have the opportunity in the very very near future to become successful in ways that I see with my own perspective and not with others.

And to the person who I talked to tonight, thank you so much. I miss you and I love you. I'll see you soon. You know who you are. :)